A bit of crash or two last few days ... details on the chelation/health blog
Just wanted to pick up the habit of journaling pre-sleep. Gotta get up early(530AM) to go to Elkins Appalachian Community Mental Health for the group counselling session, re:DUI tomorrow. Thoughts I'd drop a note on that.
Today was very productive, despite varieties of feeling like crap. (adrenal crash)
On the + side, with metronidazole my hearing symptoms have gone down maybe 70% as has been tension in TMJ. Even hips looser (30-40%).
I am still grateful that I have loving parents that support me. Financially and with what I ask. Even though my mom was, well, acted likeherself when I asked that Garo pick up one more perscription. And even in his financial crunch Garo spent ~2000TL on medications, + shipping hanut + shipping to get my (new) meds to me. New meds will be here tomorrow night! Rifampin + CIRS meds including an RBC builder. Excited to see what effect they will have.
I am also grateful for having built mindset, knowledge and skills that allow me to navigate the crises. These will serve me well, in a content free way, in any endeavor I chose to undertake next.
I've also realized, one experience I particularly like is solving mysterious and complex puzzles (re: my health), tinkering and seeing what the outcome will be. The mysterious piece is important, when the outcome is as yet unknown, even when there may be a previous path that leads the way. Where else to apply this?
Still a faint, but strong intuitive interest in AI, perhaps a leftover of the mythic form I had been following in my teenage years.
Listened to some podcasts while doing work. Peter Diamandis doing his exponential abundance schtick. I do crave. No, I want high level intellectual stimulation. The kind I get when exposed to simplified complexity theory applications. Simple, elegant, yet with great explanatory power. Model/theory driven not fact driven. Facts come after. And "I don't know" is still the biggest show in town.
Nisanyan der ki: Mutlak iman fikrinin kaçınılmaz olarak getirdiği ahlaki çürümeden söz ediyoruz burada, şu din ya da bu din değil mevzu. Kuran üzerinde özellikle durmamın nedeni, o metinde mutlak imandan ahlaki tükenişe giden yolun nispeten net bir şekilde ifade bulmuş olmasıdır. Yoksa verecek başka örnek çok. Mesela bir dinî özgürleşme çağrısı olarak başlayıp köylülere, Yahudilere, Türklere karşı korkunç bir nefret çığlığına dönüşen Luther. Mesela en yakın müttefiki ve teorisyeni Servetius’u idam ettiren Calvin. Mesela otoriteye karşı bir bireysel vicdan baş kaldırışı olarak başlayıp, Amerika’da bir riya ve taassup rejimine dönüşen Püritenler. Mesela fakir hacılara hastane kuruyoruz diye başlayıp Rodos ve Malta’da mafyavari bir korsan örgütüne dönüşen Sen Jan şövalyeleri. Mesela bir eğitim ve propaganda çalışması olarak başlayıp militan bir siyasi nüfuz cemaatine evrilen Jezüitler. Ne Mormonlar muaftır o dönüşümden, ne İsmaililer, ne Dürziler ne de Lübnan Marunileri. Budizm gibi bir mutlak sükûnet ve işe dönüş öğretisi bile Sri Lanka’da Myanmar’da devlet ve kitle zorbalığının adresi olabiliyorsa düşün artık.
Just wanted to pick up the habit of journaling pre-sleep. Gotta get up early(530AM) to go to Elkins Appalachian Community Mental Health for the group counselling session, re:DUI tomorrow. Thoughts I'd drop a note on that.
Today was very productive, despite varieties of feeling like crap. (adrenal crash)
On the + side, with metronidazole my hearing symptoms have gone down maybe 70% as has been tension in TMJ. Even hips looser (30-40%).
I am still grateful that I have loving parents that support me. Financially and with what I ask. Even though my mom was, well, acted likeherself when I asked that Garo pick up one more perscription. And even in his financial crunch Garo spent ~2000TL on medications, + shipping hanut + shipping to get my (new) meds to me. New meds will be here tomorrow night! Rifampin + CIRS meds including an RBC builder. Excited to see what effect they will have.
I am also grateful for having built mindset, knowledge and skills that allow me to navigate the crises. These will serve me well, in a content free way, in any endeavor I chose to undertake next.
I've also realized, one experience I particularly like is solving mysterious and complex puzzles (re: my health), tinkering and seeing what the outcome will be. The mysterious piece is important, when the outcome is as yet unknown, even when there may be a previous path that leads the way. Where else to apply this?
Still a faint, but strong intuitive interest in AI, perhaps a leftover of the mythic form I had been following in my teenage years.
Listened to some podcasts while doing work. Peter Diamandis doing his exponential abundance schtick. I do crave. No, I want high level intellectual stimulation. The kind I get when exposed to simplified complexity theory applications. Simple, elegant, yet with great explanatory power. Model/theory driven not fact driven. Facts come after. And "I don't know" is still the biggest show in town.
Nisanyan der ki: Mutlak iman fikrinin kaçınılmaz olarak getirdiği ahlaki çürümeden söz ediyoruz burada, şu din ya da bu din değil mevzu. Kuran üzerinde özellikle durmamın nedeni, o metinde mutlak imandan ahlaki tükenişe giden yolun nispeten net bir şekilde ifade bulmuş olmasıdır. Yoksa verecek başka örnek çok. Mesela bir dinî özgürleşme çağrısı olarak başlayıp köylülere, Yahudilere, Türklere karşı korkunç bir nefret çığlığına dönüşen Luther. Mesela en yakın müttefiki ve teorisyeni Servetius’u idam ettiren Calvin. Mesela otoriteye karşı bir bireysel vicdan baş kaldırışı olarak başlayıp, Amerika’da bir riya ve taassup rejimine dönüşen Püritenler. Mesela fakir hacılara hastane kuruyoruz diye başlayıp Rodos ve Malta’da mafyavari bir korsan örgütüne dönüşen Sen Jan şövalyeleri. Mesela bir eğitim ve propaganda çalışması olarak başlayıp militan bir siyasi nüfuz cemaatine evrilen Jezüitler. Ne Mormonlar muaftır o dönüşümden, ne İsmaililer, ne Dürziler ne de Lübnan Marunileri. Budizm gibi bir mutlak sükûnet ve işe dönüş öğretisi bile Sri Lanka’da Myanmar’da devlet ve kitle zorbalığının adresi olabiliyorsa düşün artık.
S- Nedir bu örnekleri birleştiren ortak payda?
C- Mutlak hakikate sahipsen ahlaklı kalamazsın. Tıpkı mutlak iktidar gibi, mutlak hakikat çürütür.
Evrenin en korkunç canavarıdır, kuşkudan arınmış insan.
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