What am I grateful for?
Yesterday was a day of almost complete health. Sure anxiety and fatigue and obsession kicked in at points. But I was mostly in the basari karesi. Got to do the rest of the translations and run many errands. I am grateful for the level of health that I have and the comfort and privacy (and emf-freeness too) that this apartment provides. Green Bank has gone from a backward, dirty (compost!), evil prison to a wild and wonderful retreat in my mind.
I am also grateful and appreciative of all the ways I've learned and devised to deal with health issues that come up. Adjusting liver phases, all the supplements, the machines, O2, O3, Rife etc. A yes Rife helped.
But, I don't want to use this jouranl for health notes. I spend way too much of my resources there anyway.
I'd like really employ 80/20 in my dealings and get to the point of being that when there is nothing to be done, or no gain for doings to simply stop doing and be settled in myself sustaining.
Onur Tavsancil Facebook'a Litvanytali ponpon kizlarla ilgili bi video koymus. dun okudugum bi spiritual quote aklima geldi, when you have neither desire nore repulsion, when you can simply observe you have been trancending gibi biseydi. Remember it's all just data. Let it just stay as data, and if you can't, then just attend to different bits of the data, and/or attend to the data differently.
I am also grateful for the new stage of relationship that's developing between me and Joe. On reminding him to take Laura to an emf free place yesterday. He writes:
"" As they say elsewhere ... Let the dead bury their dead, life is for the living. https://billygraham.org/answer/what-did-jesus-mean-when-he-said-to-let-the-dead-bury-the-dead/
Yesterday was a day of almost complete health. Sure anxiety and fatigue and obsession kicked in at points. But I was mostly in the basari karesi. Got to do the rest of the translations and run many errands. I am grateful for the level of health that I have and the comfort and privacy (and emf-freeness too) that this apartment provides. Green Bank has gone from a backward, dirty (compost!), evil prison to a wild and wonderful retreat in my mind.
I am also grateful and appreciative of all the ways I've learned and devised to deal with health issues that come up. Adjusting liver phases, all the supplements, the machines, O2, O3, Rife etc. A yes Rife helped.
But, I don't want to use this jouranl for health notes. I spend way too much of my resources there anyway.
I'd like really employ 80/20 in my dealings and get to the point of being that when there is nothing to be done, or no gain for doings to simply stop doing and be settled in myself sustaining.
Onur Tavsancil Facebook'a Litvanytali ponpon kizlarla ilgili bi video koymus. dun okudugum bi spiritual quote aklima geldi, when you have neither desire nore repulsion, when you can simply observe you have been trancending gibi biseydi. Remember it's all just data. Let it just stay as data, and if you can't, then just attend to different bits of the data, and/or attend to the data differently.
I am also grateful for the new stage of relationship that's developing between me and Joe. On reminding him to take Laura to an emf free place yesterday. He writes:
"" As they say elsewhere ... Let the dead bury their dead, life is for the living. https://billygraham.org/answer/what-did-jesus-mean-when-he-said-to-let-the-dead-bury-the-dead/
One day Jesus invited a man to follow Him and become His disciple—but the man refused. He said he would follow Jesus later, but first he wanted to go bury his father. Jesus responded, “Follow me, and let the dead bury their own dead” (Matthew 8:22).
What did He mean by this? Jesus wasn’t saying that people who were physically dead should bury other dead people; as you say, that wouldn’t make sense. Instead He was speaking of those who were spiritually dead—those who were alive physically but dead toward God in their souls. We may be very strong and healthy physically, and yet be spiritually dead—which is far more serious.
To us Jesus’ words to this man might sound harsh—but that is because we don’t understand what the man was really saying. When someone in Jesus’ day said they wanted to go bury their father, it didn’t necessarily mean he was already dead. Instead they really were saying that they wanted to stay with their father until he died—something that might be years away. This man was simply looking for an excuse to avoid becoming Jesus’ disciple.
What keeps you from following Jesus as you should? Almost anything can come between us and God; the devil will make sure of that. But Jesus’ call has not changed: “If anyone would come after me, he must deny himself and take up his cross daily and follow me” (Luke 9:23).
I feel like the character and quality of my pursuit is different now. Less obsession definitely (post-Lyme/Babs) and also Tamer hammering into me to move closer and remain in the OBM zone. I also give myself more of break, which is good. And there isn't as much intensity to the striving to learn. I guess, what I want to emerge is an effective and efficient way of learning and practice of new behaviors, the skills that are going to be part and parcel of having become masterful. And I am not doing as much as I could to that affect? (Or is this just bad learning from the past?)
What I keep experiencing in moments of better health is that, getting there is the most important thing still. But, I'd like to make sure only as much attention & resources that are necessary go there. And that will require some adjustment.
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